I started more seriously looking at jobs in other cities and states today. The time has finally come when I do not care to live here any longer. Too much of San Diego has ghosts; ghosts of friends, ghosts of exes, ghosts of sameness. Everyone else is moving on and expanding their lives and it is time for me to do so as well. Once summer school is over. Too bad I have to sign a stupid 15 month lease. But leases can be broken. I never totally saw myself staying in San Diego forever, and now the feeling is almost overwhelming. Don't get me wrong, San Diego has been very good to me. But it also holds a lot of ambiguity. I've given a lot of myself to this place, for better or worse. I need a fresh start. Need to meet new people, see new things, do something fucking different. I cannot wait.